Well, this post was inspired by the fact that I
couldn’t decide what to reflect on this evening. I looked through picture
quotes, meditated, lit a yellow candle for inspiration and creativity, and even
called a muse (thanks Charmed, for the inspiration on that one). When nothing
worked, I decided that I was maybe a little frazzled from my rune studies. I
had hoped that one day would’ve been enough rest but obviously not.
When I get the ‘frazzled’ feeling, I mean
spiritually, magickally, I can’t connect, I can’t think, it’s like a power cut.
There’s nothing I can do, I’ve over worked myself, emotionally, mentally,
spiritually and magickally – I just have to ride it out and wait for my energy
to regenerate. It happens every now then – I get so carried away with studying
every corner, crack and crevice of my path, immersing myself, delving, diving,
drowning in this ocean of… I can’t even finish this sentence. This is frazzled,
the words still roll round my head, some of them even rhyme, I still dream of
soaring the skies on the back of a winged horse, and I still light my candles
and exercise my chakras. What’s frazzled is the connection between that and the
physical world – how all the thoughts in head can barely come out coherently. It’s
the feeling of overload, shut down, complete annihilation of magickal ability
and creativity.
Now that I’ve explained the intensity of condition,
I can speak about when it lifts and I feel rejuvenated, energised and amazingly
inspired. My spirit lifts out of my body and does laps around earth; I dance
with the God when this weight leaves me. It’s the most somersault-invoking
moment I ever experience, it takes me higher than All Hallows Eve, higher than
multiple orgasms and probably parachuting too – never got round to trying that.
It’s a rush or adrenaline and energy and power. The intensity level lasts like
this for a few days and I get so much done before it evens out, I feel like I’m
living in the stratosphere. When it does even out, I’m still wired for weeks
but it eventually dissipates into normality.
I think the point of me rambling on about this is that
it’s nice to get it all out sometimes, just splurge the crappy feeling out.
Maybe it will speed up the ecstacy of it lifting. Well, that is my take of
being frazzled. I’m adding this as a Wittering on post, as I feel like I have
wittered on.
Blessed Be x)O(x
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